Random conclusions!

         I am reading this book called 'Visions of Glory' by John Pontius. It is about a guy who had some near death experiences. What he learned in one near death experience is that God could actually turn around time. Meaning we could go back in time and repeat things, but it's not part of the plan on this earth. So we can't back track time. I was thinking about how that would be wierd if we actually could back track time.

         That led to remembering a talk I'd heard awhile ago. It was by a lady named Stephanie Nielson who was in a small plane crash as of about 10 years ago. I believe it was early August of 2008 that the accident happened. She ended up having a near death experience as well, although she doesn't explain much on that in her book 'Heaven is Here.' But she was trapped in the plane while it was in flames. The people in the front had gotten out, so she was the only one trapped. She did have divine guidance in getting out of the plane or she'd be dead. But she got out and ended up seriously burned. After months in the burn center in Arizona and Salt Lake she's very functional now. But does look quite different from before due to skin grafts and such. She does a lot of going around and talking at firesides. This particular one I saw was recorded and put on youtube from a devotional at Utah Valley University. (UVU) Someone there asked that if she could repeat time would she get in the plane again knowing it would crash and burn? I expected her to say 'no way', but oddly enough she said 'yes.'
       
         Anyway after remembering that and reading the book, I thought 'there is no way I'd want to repeat time.' But then I remembered if we could repeat time then I never would go back into that apartment I was in during 2017 with those really, really bad roommates. That would be nice to have that as something that never happened. But interesting enough I've realized this summer that I'm actually glad I lived in that bad apartment with the bad roommates and bad landlord. Because in Utah with mainly LDS people it's easy to be naive and assume everyone is good. (or you hope everyone is good) But I have thus realized from meeting those people that there is evil in Utah and even evil in the church. Not the church itself, but there are evil people who proclaim to be LDS and even go to church. I've become much more careful in the last 18 months. I have since made sure I have locks on my phone. If I meet someone I don't become tight with them super fast. I generally steer clear if I get bad vibes from them and don't think to myself 'okay I have to be friends with them to be a good LDS person.' I generally would think that before 2017 when meeting just about anyone. But you know what? It's actually okay to stay away from people who aren't a good influence or who will try and drag you down. Also I've thus realized from that incident that it really is good to call the police if your in a situation that calls for it. I previously thought it was better to stay away from the police. But technically they are trained to help people be safe. And some situations just aren't safe no matter how you try to get around it.

          Most people who know about the bad roommate stuff from early 2017 will be surprised to hear that I'm glad now that I lived there. Because I majorly went off for a long time about how it was the most ridicules thing I had to live there. And I didn't understand why I had the impression to move there if it wasn't good to be there. But I really am glad I moved there because it's become a living reality that we have to be aware that there are evil influences in the world and not everyone is going to be as they proclaim to be. Unfortunately a lot of dishonesty happens and a lot of people in the world put on a fake face. Word from the wise: be careful as to who you associate with and don't trust everyone you meet just to prove your a good LDS person.

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Day #68: Happy pioneer day to those who are in Utah! I was in the parade with a handcart group, it was super hot with all the pioneer clothes on. I am happy that I live in current times, it would have been hard to be a pioneer. I also am reading this book about the Willie and Martin handcart companies, it's super sad they got stuck in the winter of Wyoming. But amazing how many went out to help them from Salt Lake when they found out there were still people coming.

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Day #67: Family history makes me happy!

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• Day #66: I love words of living prophets and more especially a book I found recently that is written by the apostles makes me very happy. A quote from President Nelson is this: 'Plead with the Lord for the gift of discernment. Then live and work to be worthy to receive that gift so that when confusing events arise in the world you will know exactly what is true and what isn't.' People kept telling me that you learn something from every experience in life. In relation to those horrible roommates last year I always thought 'no way, I learned nothing living there except that I would never want to be horrible like those people.' But not long ago I had the realization that the ONLY reason why I figured out how horrible all those people were was actually due to the holy ghost. I wouldn't have figured it out on my own, other then maybe catching on that I hated how controlling they tried to be. And that they'd say things that contradicted what they previously said, so it was obvious they were liars. But one clear experience I had was when the biggest bully of the apartment (one who'd been there around 5 years) got everyone into a huge fight. I left town to get away from the stupid crap. But my Bishop had said to me before I left 'make sure your room is locked at all times.' I made the mistake of telling that bully that I was leaving town, so she cornered me right before I left so that I'd forget to consider locking the door. The next day my sister suddenly asked me if I'd locked my door in Logan, then explaining she'd randomly had the impression to ask that. I realized that I hadn't, but we decided that I could just ask that roommate to lock it. (I didn't know what a bully she was then) Well I suddenly had a very dark impression that I shouldn't ask her. The last resort was to ask the landlord, but as an after thought I was like 'oh I should just get the roommate to do it.' But then my sister said 'no if you had a bad feeling about the roommate then don't do it.' So I got the landlord to go lock the door, but turns out that very night the nasty girl started trying to message me and get all sweetie on me. I'm pretty sure she was there when the landlord showed up to lock my room door and was mad about it. Anyway I went back and learned later on how horrible and dishonest she was in general. (good deceiver is all there is to it) So anyway recently I realized a lot of what I found out in relation to what she was doing was from impressions of the Holy Ghost. I know that I learned from living there that I'd NEVER want to live without the holy ghost. The only way to decipher good from evil in the world is through the holy ghost. We really can't do it on our own! Sadly there are nasty/evil people in the world currently. I would have honestly been so screwed with those horrible roommates if I had not been in tune with the holy ghost. The holy ghost literally saved me multiple times in that nasty place.

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Day #65: Vacation makes me happy and being with family!