Day #42: Forgiveness makes me happy!! As previously mentioned I met some real jerks last year, but what made them worse was that they claimed to be SO religious. They'd always go to church like they were great LDS members and they'd say that they were RMs. (returned missionaries) Which I do believe they are, but they haven't strived to live their religion since their missions which is pretty much a shame. You go on a mission to convert people to the gospel as well as converting yourself, what's the point of going if you aren't going to live your religion after? Anyway these people made me so angry!! They pretended to be amazing people in the community and all. But behind closed doors they were absolute liars and bullies to anyone they could do it to that appeared to be nice enough to not call them out on it. They decided that I was one the one they'd single out and harass, along with being dishonest towards. (since I was a roommate) Even after I moved this one person continued to harass and bully me, it was to the point I had to stand up for myself. Anyway later on this jerk roommate came to my job and tried to apologize saying I'd saved her life. Well later on when I wouldn't go along with her crap she started blaming me for her problems, and telling me I was this miserable person who wouldn't forgive and she was this amazing forgiving person. Yet I'd said right before that statement that I was going to forgive her, but I didn't have to condone her disgusting behavior. I told her to stay away from me and thank God that's the last I've seen of that miserable person. Anyway time went on and I started reading books about people I knew who had it worse then I ever had it in life. I mainly read these books because I was so ANGRY at these horrible people. Well I ended up reading this book called 'Unseen Angel' by Alissa Parker. Her daughter was shot in the Sandy Hook Shooting in 2012. She talked in the book about how she really hated the shooter and interestingly enough her living daughter said that she was concerned about the shooter. (who was dead) Well due to the spirit her and her husband started thinking they should meet with the shooters father. They ended up doing that and it became a huge blessing, in fact it became a stepping stone for their forgiveness towards the shooter. She also talked about how she decided that she needed to let the shooter go and eventually did. Well it was books like that which really helped me because these people who'd had it much worse were able to get past it. Anyway I decided to really let go of those miserable roommates from last year. I for one decided to block out anything related to them from my thoughts. Well that was a few months ago that I decided that, around Christmas time. Anyway it's interesting because I actually just in the last few days thought about the fact that I wasn't really angry at those miserable roommates anymore. It helps that I don't see them anymore, except one time in January that I saw the one jerk roommate at the grocery store. But it was really cool because the other day I realized that I'm really not angry at those horrible people and actually can say that I've forgiven them. It's pretty amazing getting to this point! I think it's helped to remember that they'll have to account to God for the nastiness they've done in this life and that God still loves them despite it. There is a talk Alissa Parker gave where she talks about this peace of forgiveness being apart of the atonement. I thought that was pretty cool, but here's the talk at the link below.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7RjrH5F9eKU&t=86s
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